recently shits happened...i can't help but start to question myself, why did I choose to work in this organization for the 4th year...after all it is so not easy for a chinese graduate to decide on...

my motivation - I can still remember clearly - I want to be part of the direction that this organization is going towards since I have my faith in it and it will ideally speaking make things happen in the way i want to see - we walk out from the organization and are ready and also really want to make a difference in the world - this or the other way - with a vision and walk the values.

but now time was spent...forced to...on meaningless politics-playing...we'r not making an effort to make things happen in the way that we as an organization of the country committed to but try to destroy the shared vision...maybe it is never a shared vision although i have belief in it,,,stroungly!

for a moment, i had the flash of thought of leaving all the shits behind and start up with something new something of meanings. just a second of thoughts..a second of hesitation...a moment of being weak and fearful...but finanlly i knew that i have no way out but fight for the things that i truly believe in...regardless of the other's recognition...this is the ONLY way i guess...walk on

talking about culture of excellence...i recently found out that some people unfortunately perceive it as "striving for being the most professional and top agecy of international human resources by moving as many people as possible around the globe". Such an irony!

speechless and need to take action! Try not to fall into useless arguments. Focus.

okay, i know it has been many many weeks and I did not do anything to my very outdated weblog. the thing is (also the excuse) I´ve settled down, working busy, national conference, EuroCo...all those things. in the end i fould it pretty difficult to believe that actually there were so many things happened and especially there were way too many exciting or extreme moments but i didn´t write them down here to share. Sharing is caring. yes, that´s why I´m back and decided to write them down. well, some of them obviously!

travel:

== Serbia (again!) yes and this time for EuroCo, the good thing was we also went to the up northeast city called Kladovo which was the actualy conference site - opposite of the river we could see the industry of Romania!!! So technically speaking, I also have been to Romania (at least for my eye sight :p). The conference was great, learnt a lot about faciliattion compared to IC (to be honest). wonderful friends like the whole faci team, our Danish delegation, Sarah from Switzerland, Janne from Finland, Florian from Belgium and many many more. DISCOVERY: in Belgrade - they have that kind of market which sells a lot of very cheap and bad quality products made in China but of course much more expensive due to the fact that they need to transport from China to Serbia first even though they might have some "nice" trade agreements before still it is quite rediculous for me to see those I-myself-won´t-buy-any low-quality stuff were everywhere and at least 2-3 times more expensive then in China. DISCOVERY 2: the ice cream in downtown was still great, I had twice one night but also the only night when we were relaxing and hanging out in Belgrade. DISCOVERY 3: the SMOKE way too much, seems to me the whole population are smokers, i can´t imagin life for non-smokers here which also made me miss Denmark quite a lot : ) QUESTION: they are very kind to everyone even foreigners made me feel very warm and welcomed in this city, then again, when it all came to business, they are sort of no so focus on delivery and efficiency which made me quite annoyed. What would be the growth model of this country? They suffered too much from the war which is really true, but now who can help them out of the situation? In Chinese we said, if you can not help yourself first no one can actually help you.

Hey, if you’r wondering what have I been doing for the 4^th and 5^th week in Denmark, feel free to check out the pic here.

I have been very busy these 2 weeks, 14 days week in a row and work starts again immediately tomorrow, weekends were gone for holiday for 2 weeks already, so I only had weekdays. But it was somehow fun, as long as I can still be physically sound – which I doubt, but besides tiredness, everything is fine. Last weekend I was in Odense, the hometown of Anderson – the one who wrote the Little Mermaid, remember? I read a lot of his works when I was a kid- the first time I realized that fairy tales could be sad but beautiful. It was the P meeting there, meaning all 6 LCPs with Soren as MCP, and me, hehe, as secretary somehow. Nein, just it would be cool to get to know  the Ps since I missed out the Summer Meeting. This weekend I went to Aarhus – the 2^nd biggest city of Danmark – where we have 2 LCs there. Sat was somehow rainy and a bit chilly in the city – after the local training day – we were slowly walking down from the University to a Open-space museum of the old buildings (what’s the Danish word for that?! Need to ask someone!). It is closed already, but we can still go inside, just that we can’t walk in the individual house and there were no performance – which was actually perfect. With the small shower, we were walking on the stones valley, beautiful and old buildings of all time on both side – If you check out the picture – I got a question for you – why most of the brick house have red or black wooden frame? It looks like a drawing of a kid – bright colour with black or red frame to outline the object. How fairy tale is that?! I love it a lot and enjoyed from the walk – taking pictures everywhere without disturb from tourists. Then later we had a very big dinner in a very characteristic restaurant – with very nice overhead lamp – I was seriously thinking of buying one of those! Cozy and relaxing talk with Yee Mee – the LCP of ASB – who also speaks Cantonese!!!, Thomas – VPICX of ASB, a very tall big boy, nice and sometime shy; Astrid – the trainee from Belgium, super fan of fries and chocolate; Camilla – the VPOGX of UNI, we met in Germany and she’s really good and helped us to prepare the lunch for the training, thank you so much!

Sun we worked during the morning but then after my push – we went for a walk with the left-over sandwich from yesterday at 12:30. It was a SUNNY day!!! If you know what I mean, you shouldn’t waste any sunny day in Danmark cuz they are really getting rare! Nice Latin quarter – shops everywhere with styles!

Need to run now, missing you all and hope you are getting the rest sunshine from the warm season! Love from my small room in Copenhagen…  

The list of small things in life that bring me happiness

the happiness I can obviously felt from my parents and my grandparents at the other end of the telephone line when I called them now and then

every single  second I talk to Achim, my very cute love

the surprise mooncake from my teammates who are from Denmark, Australia and Argentina!!

the second when I looked up the sky and found the bright moon and sparkling stars

the most innocent smile from a baby on a night bus

the “bye” from a complete stranger on the s-tog train

the beautiful mix of white roses and purple tulips next to my laptop on the old but nice white working table from my flatmate

the feeling of somehow home when I got  back to my room and threw down the heavy backpack

the simple “thank you” from an  AIESECer and was proud of myself that I did make a difference to individual

the mid-night  out-of-control candy fever – oh my god!

a good book to read, inspiring and with easy also wise language

understand/guess-right  some basic German from friends on MSN

the cool breeze during coffee-break after 3 hours sticking in the half-basement office

nice music from random corners everywhere

afternoon  sunshine  in a/many chilly day(s) of Copenhagen

watered my 2 pots of plants and 2 vases of flowers… in my colourful room

emails from old friends, from AIESEC China, though we’r now scattered  around in Europe and China

a lazy Sat morning slept until I didn’t want any more

a movie that moved me to tear,  just to name a few: English patient, Leon: the professional, Frida, Love Actually, The Postman etc etc…

missing my honey and feeling the love between 2 different individuals… not easy but truly beautiful!

Love from Wing in the mid-autumn Copenhagen…

How to SURVIVE in Beijing from only 1000RMB?!

Just for your info esp. those who haven’t been to China before, 1000RMB is like 100 Euro, and the expenditure in China (well, big big city like Beijing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and Shenzhen) would be like a budget meal around 5 RMB, a room to rent – in the big city at least 500RMB, one way subway in Beijing is 3RMB, taxi starts with 10 RMB and usually a 15 mins ride cost like 15RMB without traffic jam…

I was reading an article online named “Life in 10 cities of China with 1000RMB”, after reading it… I was kind of silent… for a while. 1000RMB was the expend of mine during my univ life, but I didn’t have to pay for dorm and transportation was not an everyday thing for me at that time, still most of the time, I would need to use my saving from the scholarship or the pocket money my mom put into the credit card secretly. I can’t imagine life in Beijing – including the room rent but only 1000. Not like that I could not survive, but if you can read that article, you would have the same feeling as mine – the interviewee described her life in Beijing as – no social activities, no chance to learn more, not able to just go around, not even proper food…no love life!! – cuz she simply can’t afford it. How will you understand this sentence? I never had that experience before that one would say that I’m too poor or earning too less for having a boy/girl friend. I believe what she told was true, but just made me feel so bad that people can’t even afford LOVE only because of the stupid money – I’m not blaming them!

Going to Odense tomorrow… wish you a nice weekend!

Love from the a-bit-lonely-and-sentimental Friday night in Copenhagen, lighting up my candle…